27nov2011 am – sleepless nite in the earliest morning =)

26nov2011,, an asian “jo frost” visit my house.. finally adam looks so much comfortable after so many days of unwell.. as his nose is clear by this special visitor who is my collegue, mother of 4.. she bring along her barang barang to treat adam.. barangs include nasal aspirator,, and ointment. she demo the way to do the suction directly on adam w/o afraid of his muscus.. wow,, i was so tired,, but was so caught by her move. tats motherly love,, i alway have to take alot of time to develop it.. =( so sad..

looking back at my posts,, i realise ariel’s food picky start all the way back in year2009.. coming to 2 years nothing seen to pick up.. it addon my stress when adam come into the picture in my life.. i m afraid of failure again.. today i finally make the first move,, as adam show signs of hunger for solids.. and been having alot of saliva,, and he is more stable when seated on bumbo seat. pumpkin was add to the grocery list today.. done the puree and freeze it for further adam’s feeding and adding to ariel’s food.. 1 stone kills 2 birds.. adam= start from young.. ariel= reset,, and go back to square 1..

somehow what happen to me today,, did bring some sense to my ups and down.. partly the cause of my sleepless nite.. alway been packing my house but things just cant get it right.. alway have to reshuffle when something come into my life.. after ariel was born,, shift for maid then come along with uncle staying with us.. maid left,, reshuffle to let ariel sleep with us.. then reshuffle again to lett out the space room.. expecting adam,, reshuffle as hubby wori at my last trimster it will b hard for me to wake up from mattress on the floor. adam arrival, reshuffle again to fit all 4persons to sleep together.. then when all the unwell,, and disture nite to all 4 persons.. reshuffle the furniture again,, kids and me shift to the other room to ensure hubby to have a better rest and adam from waking up due to hubby’s movement. reshuffle the furniture again,, as the 2nd bedroom we sleep was like a study room cum toys room. so once again reshuffle it out to living room and hubby making his final decision to give up his fish that left out a big space.. now the house is messy with all those reshuffles.. with messy house,, messy feeling and routine, life is hard to pick up.. today the asian “jo frost”,, enlighten me with some tips that i can apply to the house keeping as well.. gonna make a plan and accomplish it.. looking forward to piece up the house,, so that i can focus on my parenthood..

the other mission is to also find some time to spend with my husband,, i realise we speak the difference “love langage”.. make life very hard to feel ease as our perspective are differences. by just saying things out in a general terms doesnt solve the problems. end up we jus give and take without knowing that what he say doesnt mean,, my understanding.. sometime love is blinds,, when u are madly in love not seen impossible.. when love start to be have commitment and responsiblities.. fingers start to point and point at all the shortcomes.. seen like wearing a long-dist specs,, everything seen so clear.. but when its too near,, its blur..

off to adam’s nite feed.. after pen down my thoughts,, burden seen to be release.. everyone’s perspective are different,, need to strike a balance in interaction..

Just nice.. too much or too less is not good.. ((phlisophy for the coming year..))

if only knots can be release.. things can be let go..